I could just not go. I could just go back to bed or something. It's not like I would miss the stress and the shopping and too much food. I have no love of the Christmas celebration. It is a worldly thing, despite pious attempts by some to make it a Jesus incident. Well, you could certainly make a brand of soda called Jesus soda and piously hope that people would think of Jesus when buying it. But soda is not a Jesus thing in the first place. (Good wine, now ... but let's not go there.) Midwinter feasts are not a Jesus thing either, and to me it is a purely secular holiday. I have no need or even wish to celebrate it. I do this just out of my love for the most remarkable human I have met.
How could I not be drawn to her? Her eyes are as pretty as Noire's, she is as smart as Tsaiko, as energetic as Delphina, as funny as Chaos, as shapely as Cneko, as innocent as ... uhm, Lighthawk, perhaps. ^_^* Anyway, she is the pinnacle of creation, as far as I am concerned.
"She is sleeping now, softly in the night.
And in my heart of darkness she has been the only light.
I am lost in love, looking at her face;
and still I hear the voice of reason,
telling me to chase these dreams away.
Oh here we go again, we're divided from the start,
For we cannot live together, and we cannot live apart,
It's the classical dilemma between the head and the heart."
(Chris de Burgh, "The Head and the Heart".)
Actually, we can live apart, we do it all the time. But somehow we can't keep doing it long enough for me to forget. I guess I can only hope she'll find her own man soon. He is bound to be much more suspicious of my motives than she is. Or even than I am.